i loveYou

2010-06-22T20:48:00.000-07:00

yay! I am back from cambodia. Like a week plus already. Hahaha. It was an awesome experience to able to go down to third world country myself to see that the world does not revolve only around singapore. While we are feasting, people in cambodia and struggling to just keep themselves alive. The childrens beg for money, walk barefooted. Some do not even have clothes. I realise that i should cherish what i have and not just keep complaining about stuffs. I miss the kids dearly' they want so much to study. They have such great sense of urgency and so happy and contented with little stuffs. Oh my. I miss the kids. The siblings care so much for one another. The elder one will always be willing to keep and save and share stuffs with their younger siblings. Its so touching. My favourite boy gave the box he made during lesson to his sister. So sweet' heh. I really wanna go back cambodia again. I miss cambodia. Heh. Jia you cambodians' i love you all'

2010-06-02T23:36:00.000-07:00

It is nice seeing zealot 2 members doing all so well in their individual lifegroups. Maybe this split was meant to be, make us stronger and better. =) I do still miss zealot 2 a lot. But my busy schedule don't allow me to take a breather and bond back with you guys. we drifted, that's for sure. But at least we grow? =)) I hope all the best for zealot 2. I am so gonna fly soon. I just hope all things works on well and awesome! =))) I love zealot 2 and rife group~ =)))

2010-05-01T20:01:00.000-07:00

yay! It has been officially 3months studying in jc! I survived 3months! Heh heh! I am cuisine now, so many tutorials to rush so many homework to rush. I feel like always rushing and running to caching up. But the difference with jc is that I have awesome friends that spurs me to go school! Heh. And also my Furb! Hahahaha. Life has been awesome for me do far! Hahahaha! I am so sad! I bet he must be very sad too! :((( stupid HI! Urgh! Will update soon! Woo~

2010-04-15T07:32:00.000-07:00

AWESOME! since i million years i posted.
I miss my sec sch friends yet enjoying JC life.
But yet through the process many hard obstacles run through my life.
I lost a pillar of support.
He is no longer there as much as when I could rely on in the past. I am weaker now.
I suppose the new change made me dread and hate it so much then now,
I am still having the same thinking.
I just cannot accept the new style that just irks me.
URGH~
I hope I will still blog often.
I hope you will see, I hope to say, I miss you dearly.
I dun want to state but i believe you understand that the rapport you gave me was amazingly great.
The 3 years, I enjoyed. But when it was time to part, I cried. You said you will still be there for me but the difference is great.
I long to hear your voice but i hear less.
I guess I just have to resign to fate and give it another month to try.
Before even i say i want to give up.
Life is tough but I will try to pull through, you too study hard and I will see you soon.
Thank you for being such an awesome friend that I will never forget.
Trust me, I will not let you down. =))
Dear friend. THANK YOU~

2010-02-04T07:32:00.000-08:00

as I look back these 4years in church and bbss. I got to admit, I never regretted a bit. Heh heh. I saw the encouragement these friends and close one gave me, I felt warm in my heart and I even teared. :)) I saw the card jacqueline ng gave me, the card miss yu gave me, roger gave me, jing yi, jun de, sab..... So many more. I feel so happy that I am loved by so many. :)) of course I do agree that there are times I felt like giving up in this long run. But as I look back now. I feel so happy! :)) I hope tomorrow cell will bond and we will get hyped up.. Like wise for my ogl group next week. I get to know awesome seniors this orientation. Haha, Ruishen lisa wei jie hui lin and patricia! Adorable and sweet few! I will never ever forget! Life at Jc now is hype-ing up.. I hope to get recharge this weekend. Jia you bah shan shan! Sa lang hae! Mg7 is sweet! :))

2010-01-28T05:02:00.000-08:00

Serious, I am getting the jitters Wow, am I ready for Jc? =X
I am petrified but yet I know, I am easily influenced, so I dun want to take the poly route.
But yet now I am uncertain. Uncertain if I made the right decision.
Uncertain about everything. Sherm said I am very nervous. You bet, I am.
I dunno why but I feel so lost.
God said that with Him I can excel in JC. But do i have the discipline?
Please I am worried Geez.
Why why why? Peishan is so worried.
This is so not her. I hope I can cope man. I really hope.....

2010-01-17T05:20:00.000-08:00

I don understand, why guys laugh at the jokes pastor say at sermon after servies despite repeating so many times. I dun get it. Derek and the guys were at mac and they were laughing so badly about the jokes that pastor Chris Long say and now, Yi jie post it as his status. Is like huh?
I guess I dun understand guys. LOL
Stinky!
I prefer girls talk. HAHAHA

I miss angel a lot! yeah we contact one another very less now. But she stands an important place in my heart. SHe is my confide. Despite her having a boyfriend, we still are like before! WHEE~
hope when we venture on different paths, we will still contact!
I lover her!! heh heh
Will be praying for angel's sister. Hope she is fine. =((

2010-01-13T17:56:00.000-08:00

I am back to update. I guess, I got over it already.
nothing can change the situation already, why not smile and accept.
I admit I feel inferior by all those around me.
Mostly they score all better than me.
I really worked hard but I got Shit results
But after these few days, I guess I should stop my resentment.
I believe God have an awesome plan for me I hope that in the future, I will walk hand in hand with Him and not keep complaining.
I want to do whatever God asked me to do well and right.
Thanks for all your concern people, shan shan is doing awesomely fine. =))
With God she will overcome!

2010-01-11T04:40:00.000-08:00

hellos
I am currently not pleased with my results.
Very disappointed. =(
Thanks for smsing me peeps.
But when i dun reply, this just means i am tired.
This results are not good to show off.
I guess i should had worked harder.
But all is too late.
I will keep my fingers crossed.

2009-12-28T17:44:00.000-08:00

HAHAS! Just to say goodbye before i leave sinagpore. =)
Yeah. belated merry Christmas too! =) I enjoyed it with zealot area.
It was nice to see rong jun and teng fei back. Though we talk a little too less. =((
Deborah looooo never come for ther party =(( Hope deb deb dear you are ok already.
don't fall ill so easily! must takecare! Sa lang

Been a long time since i updated my blog. I have been doing really fine.
Only the fact i got myself emo yesterday. HAHAS But I am fine now.
I want to end this year awesomely! =)
I want to fill God into my life to the max! =)
Been growing and learning from Him!
Too precious to lose His hands ever again! =))

17/12/09
Cindy cousin wedding! =))
It was far far far at orchid clud house.
But it was sooooo nice seeing my cousins and relatives again! =)
Esp Claudia and Debbie! =)
Had fun that day taking photos and eating.
Oh yah! Good job Claudia for the song to your sister!
SOOOO sweet! =)))
Cindy was stunning that day! =)
Aws, CNY coming! camwhore moreeeeeee! =)))

25/12/09
Went to send mabel ang off. Sad yet happy for her.
Luckily no tears fell. Hahas.
My sweet lil sister, takecare!
I will you calling me my shan shan but i know that you dream is to learn how to be independant.
You go girl! =)
I will be praying for you in Singapore so that you will be kept safe. =)
I will love you forever and ever till you return! =)
Takcare of your health too ah! there super cold.
Mabel, Fighting! =))

Life has been pack and awesome for me. I love the way I am now.
Maybe really lose contact with Kpop already, but who cares, God reigns! =)

Bye bye people! I love you all.
Flying off to Hong Kong with shermin and mabel soon!
do do do Missing you baby~

2009-12-11T11:07:00.000-08:00

Ok, since sunday I am going camp, I am here to update my dead blog. Hahas.

I want to say,
last friday i went out with 자기! 나!
I miss her alot! she is in kore while i am in Singapore.
BORED~
I enjoyed going out with her! =))
But i hate something, why make me miss you so much? =(((
No more her smsing me alr!
Boo Hoo!~

Last sunday
I WENT OUT WITH MY FORUM FRIENDS!
At last! hahs. I like hanging out with them!
=)) though a little akward at times but i still enjoy myself!
Hope to meet up again soon!
=)))
Still yet to watch my MBC cd! hahas
hyun joong wait for me until rot alr.
LOL
Gtg alr very tired.
just finish helping mum.
ZZZZZzZZZZ

2009-12-04T11:05:00.000-08:00

깅현중
*LOVE YOUR SMILE~
No matter what 자기, I want you happy.
I want to see you smile.
I like love like this seeing you smile and stay healthy.
It is also ok, if you cancel coming to Spore if you are tired and really weary.
I understand you have a freaking busy schedule.
I believe you are out there busy right now or at last catching a sleep.
I hope that after your goodbye stage you are more free and can rest well.
Aws, seeing WGM really makes me sad and really mad at why you have so many schedules!
After debut i believe you had not been sleeping well right?
haix. 자기, 사랑해 . 홧팅!~
Rest well ohhhhhhhh.....

SHERMIN AND DEBORAH COMING BACK ALREADY~ WHEEEEEEEEEE~
I am excited~
All our photos super tak glam leh take pic tgt soon~

will update soon again.
so many things to say.
lastly
더블에오공일
all the best~
I love you allllllllll a million~

2009-11-29T06:06:00.000-08:00

AWSS, Shermin and Deborah!~ Bye bye! =))
Will see you on 5th dec~~
Missing you two already.
But no matter what, I wish you all the best and remember to press on~
Will be praying and loving both you sisters a million! =))
Meet up again when you both are back! =))
Today sending you off is sad but yet awesome~
No hanky panky my girls! =)))
****** and ******
HAHAS =))))))
*loves loves~~~
Fighting,
Peishan loves you and support you~

2009-11-26T05:30:00.000-08:00

I FINISHED WITH SETI! =)) still waiting for sub for the other episodes
Actually they are just short short flims hahas.
Do catch them at hurmu tube at you tube =)) they have english Sub.
But i think Kyu is not really suitable for that character, Hyun Joong is, cause he is 4D and
i think he will fit in more. Kyu is the sweet and loving type, so how is it possible for him to be so insensitive? if is Hyun, I believe he is somehow like that hahas.
Ok. One off my list! hahas =))) BUT kyu is very very cute in the short flim hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahs.
Ok, enough of ss501 in case you are bored hahas.

2pm~(as promised to Jay's wifey!)
Share the love concert is hot! I like they way 2pm dance heart beat. It is a really nice song! and the way in MAMA when the spot light shone at Jay's position in Again and Again. =)))
I hate JYP and IVY!
Ewwwwwwwwwwww........
JYP was jiat an extra to come on stage during heart beat. IT SHOULD BE JAY~ NOT JYP!
only two alphabet difference is big ok! JAY is the one people one no JYP!!~~!!!!!
Ivy dance with nickhun was like super gross please can!
She was like onesided lah. I just dun like her dance with him. She made herself look like a whore.
Super disgusted. Dance can already what why until like that. URGH!
Ok, whatever. But through MAMA I believe JAY is coming back~! Wheets~~
Also there had been recent video that Jay is still practicing his dance and singing. YAYS
JAY COME BACK PLEASE~~~~~~~~~~
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahas~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kHIENIJ5J6s&feature=player_embedded
Credits: smashJEproductions
Or go allkpop! =))
They have all the news there~! =)))
JAY JAY JAY JAY JAY JAY ! hahas

2009-11-23T11:33:00.000-08:00

SUPPORT UKiss!
Kim Ki Bum Is loved! =))
His Oppa is Hyun Joon shi! =))
See the fourth one to the right! Dun he look like Hyun Joon????!!!!
I am currently taking my nights to catch up on the korean stuffs,
now still surviving pretty well.
Friday I shall watch SETI! =)))
Kyu Jong Shi! Wait for me! LOL!
I am lazy to type koren these days as I am always using computer in the late night with no lights on and it is tough to use type korean with no lights hahas!
Ok, I am really touched by tae Yang's wedding dress! He is so hot and so sweet in the MV.
So awesomely cute! Tae yang!!!! =)))
Ok, Ok, back to the point,
please people who like Kpop, listen to Ukiss! Let them be top too!
their man man ha ni IS NICE! =))

ok enough of Ukiss and Tae Young

SS501!
They won first in music bank again!!
HIPP HIPP HURRAY! =))
They really really worked very very hard for today's position!
Hyun Joong acted Ji hoo so that ss501 can be popular once again! Aws, awesome leader!
But, the rest of the members contributed too!
Park Jung min went to act in a musical!
Kim Hyun Jun , Kim Kyu Jong, Heo Young Saeng released an album! =))*UR MAN*
*screams!*
OPPAS! Good job! =)) All the best! Fighting!
Sa lang Hae!!!
Please release the date of concert soon!!! =)))))
Hope this friday they will be first again! If not Ukiss or 2pm also good.
BUT BUT BUT BUT ss501 first PLEASE!~!!!!! 2pm have their limelight for being the best boy band in MAMA but ss501 only OST =((((
SO please be ss501!!!=))))))))
Ok, nights have to work tomorrow =.='''
ann yeong~!

2009-11-20T09:25:00.000-08:00

I was thinking of striking my wish list,
But none seems to work out the way I wanted. =(((
I wanted to watch videos,
no time as i am working.
I wanted to learn korean but dunno where.
Private tutors are simply too expensive.
Tell me how and what to do!!!! *pull hairs*
Hyun Joong Jakiya, I am so tired =(( Mentally and physically.
Haiz....
1.Boys over flowers again!
2.Seti! =)
3.Interviews!
4.Korean drama(cruel tempation etc..)
5.Korean lessons! JENISE!!!! hahas =))
6.Fold hearts and cranes for ss501
7.meet up with forum friends
8.trip to Ikea.
9.Meet Jacqueline and Wan Ping
10. Meet Gina
11.Meet girlfriends!(deb mabel stal sherm )
12.Collection of CD!(monday!)
13. Yi camp
14. H.K trip
15.ss501 concert!
Aws, So many things in mind!!!!

2009-11-15T11:56:00.000-08:00

CHALET!
EXAMS ARE OVER!
Had Class chalet and shopping trip with crystal Dan shan Xin rong and ee feng on friday.
Chalet was fun man! =D
Thanks Bing Chen, Jessie, Jaceyln for their hardwork and Bin Xi for setting up the fire.
=D It might be the last time having a chalet with so many people so I am quite sad actually.
But the important part is that we had fun and enjoyed the presence of each and everyone! =D
Had my virgin show of horror film and tonning the night was fun! How I wish arcade dun close so early and I can play longer there. =(. my 4e4 darlings are LOVED! Muhummad and Ezzat! The heart sign is sweet sweet sweet! =DDD x33333333 I really felt touched hahas. Must do more! really very cute! =D Burhan was very very very very handsome that day! =D hahas. He really look like T.O.P. Chalet should be bonding time and I guess we really did. =DDD I love 4e4'09! =DD
Jia you ok! =DD KEEP IN CONTACT !!! x33333

Today, I went out with 기나 and I enjoyed it super much! More shopping trips 자기야!
I want to spazz with you about 2pm and ss501!!!!! =DDDDD

SS501 TIME~!

REBIRTH!!!
"Love like this" Kicked Shinee off the number 1 charts! =D
I am not against Shinee but I just feel that SS501 must be reconigise for their hardwork! =D
Their hardwork paid off! This week they are first! DID YOU SEE IT CAREFULLY!
THEY ARE FIRST! Not second anymore BUT FIRST! =D
How great can that be! =D

I heard from Gina that they could not hear the MC and they put down the phone after saying thank you. I heard that they are quite rude but I had yet to see it myself and thus I am not very sure about it. But whatever the case is, I have seen from the ss501 forum and can be really sure that they dun mean it that way, The are not rude or crude to just hang up the call but just that they just simply could not hear it and thus they out down as Kyu and Joon both expressed their BIG THANK YOU in their Blog! =D
So how fake can that be! They are not prideful! Yay! =D
It was said in Kyu's blog that after that call they were screaming and jumping all around! =D
So sweet! =D But I truly feel that they deserve it so much! after 1 year 7 months they got their reward! 사랑해!!!!!!!!
I was jumping too when I heard it! =D My heart was warmth!
Oh ya! Thanks MUHAMMAD FOR TELLING ME THIS NEWS WHEN I WAS AT CHALET! =DDDDDDD
ss501 Fighting! I will forever be your Triple S!
All the best! You derserve it and I LOVE LIKE THIS ENJOYING THE SAME JOY YOU ALL DO! =DDD

FIVE FOREVER AS ONE! =D

2009-11-10T04:25:00.000-08:00

This is Hyun Joong (햔중) 자기야!!!!!
Still my hot favorite! I just hope ss501 soar! Shinee steal away the limelight of LOVE LIKE THIS =(. I hope the next time in the top charts will be them.
Their dance is hot! Of course 햔중 too! But he sing so little =(
Next time must hear him solo once more! Quickly climb up to top chart! =DD
홧팅 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

기니! Hang out after Olevels! =)) I want to talk about ss501 and 2pm with you! =DD ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
사랑해!
Ok, I am kind of brushing up my key board skills in writing korean! hahas,
excited to learn with girlfriends! =DD
Takecare care and loves

2009-11-07T04:06:00.000-08:00

This is what I did for sangie! =S I know I look ugly lah! hahas.
But first time putting in so much effort. =X
I hope he likes it! And even if he sees it lah!
=D Sangie oppa, sa lang hae.
=DD

Besides the point;
I bought all my things for prom! Except necklace and stuffs. Hope to get them soon. Everyone
fighting for geo paper 2, sciences paper 1 and chinese
SALANGHAE! =D

2009-11-05T18:03:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday Sangie 허영생(Heo Young Saeng)
=D He turns 24 on 3 November. One sweet lovely and shy boy! =D I love his vocals! Powerful i tell you! =DD 사랑해!<3 hope that you enjoyed your celebrations this year as you got your wish of celebrating with your fans and also to celebrate it with 더블에스오공일 too! =D Enjoy your 24 birthday! =D All the best! 홧팅!! takecare and rest well! =DD Love love love!
blast this post with your photos!

*credits: Quainte and ss501couple

2009-11-04T03:35:00.000-08:00

Maybe this last year is not as great as it seems.
So many secrets, so many things kept within ourselves so many mixed feelings
I know that we have the right to keep our own secrets.
But it seems like I am not a trustworthy friend anymore, where when wrong?
I rather coop myself the whole holiday than to face all these shit.
I just hope that all these mixed feelings will fade.
Exams are not exactly over and is during this period of time I found out I am being used to draw relationships together. What the hell? Am I a bridge you walk pass and get over to get a boyfriend and that is it? Then please, at least cut me away and let me drop down the sea or something. I hate being used. Twice in a row. What the hell? Is this it? Is this what I am in my eyes of friends? Because I can talk a lot, I can break the ice between you two and spark off a relationship? If this is it then &**&((&*#%$$^^%* off my life. I don need a friend like you. I need friends that cherish and really treat me for who I am, and not just finding me to spark off dates for people I AM NOT A MATCH MAKER. I hope I am wrong in defining your acts because it hurts to be treated like this. Of course I will be great if you two workout but seriously, tell me that you like him first? At least inform me, I will then greatly help you, but this? Not telling despite all these shit? Then no thank you. Dun call me out anymore. Get the hell out of my life. I dun need a friend that dun trust me and dun respect me.

2009-10-05T02:09:00.000-07:00

After my exams this concert will be one of my canceled wish in my wish list. Most probably in Singapore if they promise to come and really does. I know my priorities are study and God of cause. =D
I now am excited. I will place my wish list here now!
WISH LIST::::
*R/S with God better!
1.Hong Kong trip with dearest pals! ( Tickets booked)
2.Learn Korean(found my buddy)
3.YI camp!
4.Earn at least $900 this holiday
5.Zealot 2 BBQ!
6.Learn Jap( I hope I can multi-task)
7.Korean drama marathon!
8.YouTube Marathon!
9.SS501 hot pursuit!(hyun joonie~!)
10.Family overseas trip!
11.SS501 concert!
While Hyun Joong is busy for his concert and album,
I shall study and get GOOD RESULTS for Olevels with God hand in hand.

2009-10-01T02:53:00.000-07:00

STILL OBSESSED WITH HIM~!!!!!자기야, 사랑해 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ! (He is mine! =X)
What if one day I can one longer speak. Can I even survive? Talking is my life and imagine if I cannot be able to sing? Oh my? CAN I DIE INSTEAD? Hehs. A lil random with my post but I now have a fish bone stuck at mu throat from yesterday till today. Thus I have been thinking quite a lot. HAHAS. =DD

2009-09-29T06:33:00.001-07:00

These few days I am feeling very restless, I feel that I talk lesser and I am less bubbly that I am before. I dun feel me. I dun think it is me maturing but somehow I feel a lil weary. Maybe because of o levels. I dun know. I just wish I am back to the same chatty me and the same hyper active me. Ajaaja fighting. PeIshan just want To rewind to the past and fix things up.

2009-09-14T08:47:00.000-07:00

김현중 아ㅃㅏ 사랑해!!
홧팅!~ Must get well soon ok! H1N1 SHOO~!

2009-09-10T18:55:00.000-07:00

STUDY STUDY STUDY~!
Back to blog. I feel like I am so lagging behind. While people are busy mugging for their examinations I can still be here blogging. Freak. I feel that I am just plain dumb. I have A maths paper2 soon. Petrified I must say. But I want to give in my all and glorify God in the end of the race. Paper 2 will be hard and I messed my paper 1. I dun know how exactly on Earth am I going to survive. But I am going to trust in God. I will put all this to a Stop. I want to stop using the computer really hope that I can. I just hope that all that are taking O levels together with me to work hard and strive for our As. Its though I must say, But nothing on earth is gained without hard work right? If I really want to go JC. The first thing I must do is to study hard. I know others are super hardworking. But I won't be defeated by that for I know when i honour God, He will honour me so I am going to fight! I am going to study hard. For the glory of God. People, I would greatly appreciate if you would text me messages of encouragement. HAHAS. Anything, trust GOD. The one who makes all things possible. Peishan! AJA AJA FIGHTING~!

2009-09-06T08:41:00.000-07:00

Teach me how to open up, so many things all in my head.
Maybe sometimes ......
I dunno. Put God as priority. I will. I will I will...

2009-09-06T07:54:00.000-07:00

demoralised! Yeah Yeah Yeah,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
I want cry................

2009-09-04T09:50:00.000-07:00

사랑해( I did it!!!!!))))) Hahas With the help of gina!=DD. Going to learn more more hahas. 홧 팅!!!

2009-09-03T08:56:00.000-07:00

currently using my mum's phone to blog. Hehs. I am going to sleep soon. I want a headphones luke that myself. But where got money to buy =(. After olevel I think I am just getting a simple phone or just use back this phone. Can't be a spendthrift if I have so many things in plan after this exam, =) hair. Amaths test tomorrow I am very afraid but yet I know God will lead me through. Sigh. I am missing lower sec life now yet enjoy this hectic schedule that I have currently, Hahas I am one weird girl. Sigh life is beautiful and I can't wait to go out and take photographs with the new camera my father bought me early this year. I want to go to the zoo and take photos. Hehs excited. I guess I am thinking all this far too early. Pouts hahas. Ajar ajar fighting everyone!

항킹

2009-08-30T20:37:00.000-07:00

Its impossible and why am I even thinking of it?=D
All A2 that is so hard. But I want to try my best and get into JC.
I want I want. I made a pact with God to delete my folder of K pop. I did it
I feel empty. My music my life. That was a statement I used to state. Now, I am lost without music. Without it I feel like a zoombie walking. But i said I will try. I want to try.
Its hard but I know it is for my own good. SS501! SA LANG HAE~! ㅋㅋㅋ
아 ja아ja항팅!!!

=D

2009-08-25T07:07:00.000-07:00

Having my prelims now. Stressed as can be. But thinking of hyun joong shi makes me smile. Hahas. I guess I have gone crazy. I am just waiting for exams to be over so that I can be totally in it. Hmmm... maybe not totally. I still have to pioritise God in my life. =D I am made a pact with God and I am so going to follow it. Aja Aja fighting. Everyone mugging, all the best. I love you guys alot. =DD

2009-08-14T05:13:00.000-07:00

I have known a few more people better. =D I have learned to not judge people any longer
Just being myself will be good. 사lang해 (cant figure out *lang*) hahas AJA AJA FIGHTING!

2009-08-08T09:27:00.000-07:00

Today I am once recharged by the korean pop. ㅋㅋㅋ
I guess it is really kinda addictive. I am still learning and I believe one day I can master it.
I feel blessed to have so many sweet pals around me.
Ajaja fightingㅋㅋㅋㅋ
love,
Peishan

2009-08-05T07:16:00.000-07:00

好想你开心。那就会是我最大的辛福。
I once heard this phrase,
Smile even when it is tough
for someone out there will appreciate it.
Smile because it already occurred.
No turning back.
Why not just SMILE.

2009-08-03T03:02:00.000-07:00

Everyone must have げんじ (genki) =D　一起加油。

好开心

2009-07-31T06:50:00.000-07:00

今天我终于能好好的休息了。中四的生活好累人啊！辛好今天可以休息了！=D
Today I went to the SS501 forum, I am charged up. Full of genki.
So no worries. I just hope the headaches get away from me soon. Its tormenting to have the headaches. I just hope that double S will soar as one. Yeah, the Korean wave is implanted into me now. Though I still yearn for Japanese so much more. I recently found out that Jolyn and Florence sweetie pie have the same interest as me. They want to learn Japanese too. Haix. All the like minded people met up at the wrong time. Should I learn Korean first or Japanese? But I was so determined to change my target to learning korean. I am so confused. Whatever may it be, MY EXAMS COME FIRST! =D

Oh. I heard my pretty cousin claudia is going to Tokyo. Aws, I am so wanting to go back there. It is so clean and pretty there with so many beatiful and handsome hunks. Ok, that is not exactly the point. But the real reason I miss there so much is the weather, kindness of the people, the meticulous way they treat each and every single person. The beautiful sights and the city lifestyle. AWS AWS AWS, I want to go back there again. Expecially during the autumm season. My dearest cousin! I envy you! Have fun there alrights!!!! I love you a million take many many photos, I want see. =D

SS501

2009-07-10T07:08:00.000-07:00

SS501

ah~! I love this band alot. hahas. Kim Hyun Joong is super handsome. Hahas.
Never did I expected that I would get into the K-wave thingy as I always thought Japanese was my life and never will I want to learn another language but Japanese. But I guess time proved everything wronged. I do still adore Japan as my hot favorite but no one has the common interest as me, it makes me so hard to go on my passion. But nevertheless the zeal is still instill in me. This time I guess maybe I would want to learn korean first! At least I might have Yue Yu and Gladys accompany. Hahas. It was Hyun-joong that made me so into korean! No la, It is actually the music hehs, Its kinda hard to master, but I am still trying hard hard hard. At least I have gina in school to aid my learning. Hahas.
ANYWAYS, If anyone keen to learn japanese language after O levels TEXT ME TAG ME! I need company! hahas. LOLs.

2009-06-30T08:49:00.000-07:00

*sourced from google

Kim Hyun Joong!
Handsome!
Hahas. He is the man lah!

2009-06-24T10:03:00.000-07:00

PULL HAIRS

I am thinking, how great if I could fly and take myself away from homework. I may seem to be constantly saying that I want to study, trust me, I only say. I haven touch a shit of my homework. Amaths turns me off but I am going to try my best to conquer it! hahas. Yup. I am going to give my best. Give my strength and courage. I am embarking on my stupid Olevel while having to endure the paranoid H1N1 period. I dun blame it for happening but how I wish this have jad yet to happen to give us empty hopes of the one week extended holiday. Its unfair I guess. I guess I had been selfish myself too. I am exhuasted. I feel like dieing. I guess maybe I can be the forst one on history to die due to stress for O levels hahas. Kiddings BUT I have the thought. LOL.

2009-06-08T05:28:00.000-07:00

They are my retards, MY DARLING =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

2009-06-07T07:37:00.000-07:00

Just in case you missed me.

It has been a month I haven blogged? I don't know but it seems that I have lost the touch of blogging. But TODAY, I insist in blogging. I have learned so much from this year's radical conference. Its a unique one this year. God really speak into my life. Every issues that I have doubt and those that I am struggling was dealt with. This year's one is awesome and I bet there will be more to come. I am struggling quite hard with the 30 days without pop music thing. But I WILL PERSEVERE! I see a revival in our cell group, I believe it will happen SOON. My Lord reigns! Currently, in a few hours time I will be facing a physic test. *bites nails* I kind of still hate physic but now, not as bad. I thank God for placing church tuition to help me. I believe that my God will give me the results if I honor Him.
I love radical conference. Lets push on zealot 2,
MUCH LOVES!!!!!
*********Not forgetting our sweet deborah and wan ping.
*Hints, its time to take picture together darlings! =D

2009-05-23T08:10:00.000-07:00

Da jia tou yao xon fu ah.! Bao wo shou zhong de xin fu, be yao ge ta liu zhou! f4 HAO HAO KAN AH! =D

2009-05-01T04:50:00.000-07:00

我觉得自己好老啊

stressful school life

2009-04-03T01:14:00.000-07:00

I guess I would never have expected the leap from sec3 to 4 can be of such a big jump. I want to from now on slack whenever I can. Just like now. I am so freaking tired and stress up by all the rushing of subjects I would just hope for a day w/o homework. I guess it would be a dream that it is so hard to happen. Hahas. Only can Jia you bah! =DDDD Sec4s! Jia you. Take care of health also ok! =DDDDDDD Loves~

2009-03-21T09:32:00.000-07:00

I am now using a very sucking kubunto. It is really a chore to use this website. It so freaking hard to understand and so hard to use. Even though I might wanted to change a software for fun, but totally not this one. Its so hard to download stuffs also. rahhh. It is driving me nuts. *pouts* But nevertheless I shall stay happy. Its been about a month since I blogged. I want back my window XP. Aws. Its hard to live without internet but eve harder to live with it. Hahas. Technology has a bad influence! hahas. Ok Ok. I just updated to tell you guys not give up on my blog hahas. Yes I am still pretty much alive...... =D

2009-02-22T06:21:00.000-08:00

Its been a while since I could snatch the computer from my brother. Since now he is in Thailand, I can use this opportunity to say hi to my beloved internet. Its nice to be able to touch the computer again. Of course maybe during the one week holiday I will take one whole day to play computer. I have lost touch with VIWAWA and even pet society, I bet my pet stinks alot, with loads of flies around it. *cries* Do help me wash my pet!!!! =DDD. These few weeks I figured out alot. I promise to treasure life to the fullest. If mary could stood by Jesus feet and use her greatest pocession then to lavish onto Jesus's feet and continued to pour on her love, Lord, I want to do it to.
Giving up my greatest thing: SLEEP! Its hard but I hope I can pull through.
much loves and misses my darlings
Good luck for ca1~! =D

2009-02-15T06:36:00.000-08:00

I will not be officially online for a long long time till my modem is fixed. I hate it, but I can do nothing since my brother has to use the only access to internet while I can just look at him play his computer. Yes this feeling is irritating. I can only use it when he allows and of course, this simply means he monitors me and of what I do and stuffs. Irritating. Hahas. I guess this will be a good opportunity for mr to study hehs. I am lieing! =X I am addicted to H.K dramas and the Cantonese and stuffs. AHHHH..... Someone save me! hahas. But I do prefer JAPAN! lol.

2009-02-04T00:55:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow I will be going to school, at last!
I think I have been missing out alot.
Never mind, shall think of that tomorrow.
The medicines have been killing me. Its like once I eat it, my body goes bonkers,
I lose control and totally need to sleep and once I sleep, I am like a pig! hahas.
I totally dun want to fall ill anymore. Its killing me.
I miss going to school! hahas Yes maybe I am extreme. But school is nice.
I used to dread it due to my incomplete homework. But now, I figured out school is nice, Very nice! =D I hope secondary life ends slowly.....

I have been waiting and wanting so much but I guess it one sided......
I am not a princess, this ain't a fairytale......

2009-02-02T05:10:00.000-08:00

Wheets, I am officially old! 16 already. Pouts. hahas. Today I really had two unexpected surprises. One was an extremely large pooh bear, next was a birthday cake by my darlings, retards and zealot2 pepos. They have been planning and I have been like a dummy not knowing anything. They have been awesomely sweet friends and of course the 37 who shared the cost of my big big pooh pooh. Thank you roger poh for bring it every lesson you went today, xin ku ni le. =D this year is sweet! I really enjoyed it. Thank you everyine who made it possible. =D

2009-01-31T11:14:00.000-08:00

I am afraid of what is going to happen. Slap me if I really do so. Its like, I falling into a trap and it will be tough to get out of it. I am trying. I wish I have suspected it before, but its not too late yet. =D Loves...

When missing becomes a routine

2009-01-25T03:03:00.000-08:00

I have a testimony to share, I don't know how many living souls will be reading my blog but I still want to give glory to God.
24/1/09
I had flag day from the morning till the afternoon. Was tiring but yet when you feel your tin getting fuller and fuller, there is a sense of satisfaction. But at the same time being ignored feeling was not good at all. Hahs. But of course this is not the testimony.
Ok, so here it goes,
I went home we the things that my mum wanted me to get that day but I cannot get one item, so I got scolded my mother and had to go and get it for her again as it was the same location but different shop. I purchased the item and went home. Her temper had yet to subside. Thus I had to help her in whatever she needed, after that it was already 4.30. I saw my long touched guitar and God prompted me, play Me a song of worship. I was pondering, then Lord, can I go to Your temple courts? He said yes if you have faith in Me. I sang songs that I usually do and went out. In my heart I told myself, with faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains. I asked my mum and she sort of fu yan-ed me but without hesitation I went. Yeah! He allowed me to go and soften my mum's heart. I am super happy lah! =DDD With God all things are possible. I gain alot in sermon too! of course this new year weight will be gained too hahas.

Oh ya, I saw Alvin Ng! =D Yes i owe you mega spicy still! hahas =D
Something sweet happen. Super happy!!!!! =DDDDD

2009-01-23T07:17:00.000-08:00

People, my computer is super idiotic now. I can only upload either the window messenger or the internet explorer. Super irritating. I won't be online unless my brother manages to fix my computer or reformat this computer. Yeah, so people dun miss me. I will upload my blog often I guess, since nowadays school seems like a insurance agency, where we are the agent busy in getting the quotas or we will get scolded. Life seems like a mockary. Rushing for this so much, we can only see the outcome after we put in the effort. Just imagine you die tomorrow or something, then why have we put in so much in studies? I am all stress-up and my surroundings ain'nt making me better. Shit stuffs pile up again and again. I am exhausted already.

Seeing people one by one rising while I am still stagnant, this feeling totally sucks.

Falling into the hands of the world.......

guys=jerks

2009-01-21T02:39:00.000-08:00

Roses are red,; Violets are blue,; Sugar is sweet;; And so are you
How many times does this kind of cheesy poem causes us to fall into a vicious cycle over and over again. Ok, maybe not me. But it hurts me so. Why? We are not stupid, we are not like having a super small brain or something. Why does guys have the liberty to hurt us so much. Why does the guys have the right to hurt us so deeply while they flirt their way around. They treat us as a substitution. They rather send time with their friends than you. They rather play with their PSP than to spend their time with you. Then why commit that they want to be with you yet not trying their best to be with you. Are guys even much harder to understand than girls? Or is it so that guys of this 20th century are such jerks. Maybe what adriana said is true. Guys=Junks. Guys treat you like a new game? They play you and once they understand you and somehow break all the levels, they keep you one side, once they feel bored they take you out to play once again. My verdict, guys treat everything they see as a game. Ok, there might be some out there sweet and nice. I am writing in the my point of view from what I see around me. But I got to say, 4e4 and zealot do have nice and sweet-loving guys =D

Pressing on

2009-01-18T23:54:00.000-08:00

WHAT MORE CAN I SAY BUT TO SAY : I LOVE YOU

When the flowers fade .
When the wind stops blowing.
When the world seems to be rip into pieces.
There is a hand telling you to hold on.
He wants to bring you to a place of warmth.
He wants to tell you that He loves you even more than anyone else.
When we thought He went off without us, He says no, I am beside you always.
Never forsaking.
He knows the tears we shed He knows the agony I had.
He knows me much more than I know myself.
He is the reason I am here.
I want to glorify Him in everything I do.
I want to wake up and start to seek His kingdom before anything else.
Cheer up my darlings. It may be a tired and stressful year for you.
Just remember He is there, I am here.
I will stand by you. =D

2009-01-14T04:12:00.000-08:00

Its because of you guys I am blessed. Because of our weakness and strength that brought us together. I am the peishan I am because of you guys. Pardon my temper. I am feeling so hard to control. But I will. I would let the evil one take hold of me. =D Retards I love you all. Many many. =D You are the reason I smile.

learnings

2009-01-02T07:51:00.000-08:00

I have learn through the hard way to cherish what I have in my hands and not letting them slip past my hands. Maybe I have known it too late. But I am missing those that I have lost, so much. Friends that I have lost contacts and of cause my relatives that ain't close or that have already been gone. I have learn so much but is it already too late?
I want to plan my resolution for 2009 soon soon........

Happy New Year

2008-12-31T10:55:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year People!

I today had fun with my retards at my house. I shall continue to call myself ginger bread man. I find it quite nice. Hahas. Today was really unexpected that I could actually stay up till so late at night. Which to me is quite unbelievable. I always grumble about the curfew that my mum impose. I hate it quite much. But today I think my mum has at last know my friends much better and gain trust in me. Hehs. I am really happy. Though I may not had went to at marina or vivo to celebrate, but I still feel its sweet. We camwhored! I find it so nice to have retards around me. They are the reason that I smile. They are the reason where I can press on in this life. We have been together alot. Laughter angriness, bitterness, sadness. I always thank God for you guys. Sweetie pies! =D. I LOVE YOU ALL ALOT! Mabel" Full of random ideas to cheer us up. Being with you. is my greatest joy. Angel" my mama, Sweet loving and caring. STILL IMMATURE hehs. Huiwen"my laming partner. I enjoy being with you alot. Deb" Sweet sweet. My high sister that never fails to get high when we are low. Shermin" I love to suan you. Janis" DUn stress up yourself too much! JingYi" Hang out more ah.

ZEALOT AREA! Aws I love this area God blessed me with. Exp my cell group. Derek" Awesome leader that always gives me support. Yi Jie"Always ka Jiao-ing me, but thats what that makes him cute. Shermin"Part of retards, 7 years and still going. Thank you for being there for me. Deborah"Dear Dear! Been through thick and thin for twoplus going yto 3 years. Let the numbers keep adding on. Josh"You have grown up much much more already.*proud of you* Daryl"Talk more la! Bleh Eunice" Sweet girl that really cheers up my day. Jia Hao" Hoping bunny never still one. But Super adorable! Adriana" You have grown more mature and feminine =D Joel"You are a gentleaman. Jeffery"Body builder HOHOS Ken Ya" Brother in Christ! Wanping"Sweet disciple! Muaks. Natalie"CUTIE PIE! And my area leader YOONG Liang Zhi" thanks for coming down that day I really appreciate it, may 2009 be a wonderful year for you, Much loves

I must also thank eugene. He is constantly there when I needed someone to chat and he is always the one that sms me till late night this year to keep me awake to study. Peishan says: "Thank You Eugene! Must continue to Jia You for Him ok. Talk more leh dun keep LOL. hahas. Much loves and thanks"

Last but not least, the heavenly Father which is the main main main one that cause my laughter and me to know retards and people around me. THANK YOU! You are my lover,friend,father,strength and comforter. ILY Lord, I want my arms to cling on You forever. My Lord is the one and only one that no one could ever replace =D I am learning to count my blessings. =D

Now Its bye bye 2008 and hello to 2009. Which means that I will be in 4ereflection already, having o level and stuffs Oh man, spare me the agony. I am quite afraid to be sec4 already. Haix. Ok, I want this year unique from the rest of the years that I have spend. I want to plan some stuffs for 2009. Which I know I will take super long to get things in place. I want this 2009 to be different. Lord Please guide me through this path that I will walk hand in hand with You. =D cheers.

Btw: This is not a speech at all!!!!

To people out there: Happy New Year! Pei Shan loves you! =D 2009 will be a special year!

2008-12-27T08:21:00.000-08:00

Sometimes people will just laugh at your pilght.

2008-12-25T12:07:00.001-08:00

Pei Loves Shan HAHAS! =D (blo Paint!)
I am smiling because I am happy and glad.

Merry Christmas

2008-12-24T07:59:00.000-08:00

Everyone! Merry Christmas!

Many should be out there celebrating? =D
I am stucked home. Hell bored. I freaking envy those celebrating.
But there is still new year's eve =D
*Prays* to ton out with my darlings (retards!)
Yup, I wonder what is it like at orchard, fun?
I want to play the snow spray! =D
Heard from Iris that zealot 3 is out having fun.
I am so jealous!
Derek, why zealot2 dun have? hahas.
I am here using com and watching my favourite show while people are having fun.
Not too bad, not too bad.
But I want to join the crowd! *Pouts
I want to buy the clip, is like a santa cap one!
I want lah. I saw it at orchard last night!
I had fun at orchard last night with *Merry Christmas*
Any way enough of my ramblings.
I hope this year will be different. =D
I LOVE YOU GUYS, God Bless!

2008-12-17T20:33:00.001-08:00

I AM FREAKING IRRITATED! =(

TOUCHED

2008-12-15T09:05:00.000-08:00

I was really touched by the amount of people who came down for my ah gong's funeral. Really, darlings, much thanks.
Liang Zhi, Derek, SiewLing, Deborah, Mabel, Shermin, Huiwen, Junde, Stella, Sabrina, Yvonne, Xiao Zhi Wei, Wei Da, Houshun, Jing Wei, Jeff, Qin Ching,Wei Kun, You Beng, (one guy i dunno his name but frm zealot3)
Aws Thanks a million. I really never expected. Much thanks for your encouragement. Because of you guys I really feel much better. =D. Friends are true when you know they are truly concern about you. Which I really thank God for. I have many. Retards and Zealot are my best best people that I could ever ask for. LOVES~
God thanks a million. Though sometimes I really dun understand your plan, but I am willing to trust in You.

=D

2008-11-30T07:57:00.000-08:00

Those sincere looking eyes and a heart whelming talks, It kills! =D

I went out to grandma house today. So heart breaking, I just hope everything can go back to the past. I want everyone just to be happy, why is it so hard? =(

2008-11-28T07:03:00.000-08:00

I am back from the chalet, you bet, I am sure tired.
26/11
I slept only 30mins on the first day. Hahas. But I really had fun sitting around the seawall near the sea and playing the guitar. Of course, songs that I really know how to play are just christian songs. But Jolyn and Jeremy Yeo are really great guitarist! =D I would never forget that sight. So beautiful and captivating. It rained like the 2hour we sat there. *pouts* But had some time to share our faith within the christians in our class. Aws, the feeling was great. We even bowled around 4am in the morning. Cheers! But I had like extremely low scores. My skills have already become rusty. Boos! I BBQ dinner was extremely nice! Josh, Jeremy Yeo, Jessie, Esther,Jacelyn thanks for BBQ-ing the food! Bin Xi was super man setting up the fire! It was like the only guy having the initiative to set up fire, *CLAPS* Mabel Ang, playing card games with you , Jeremy Yeo and Shermin is fun! =D Mrs Phua, 3e4 loves you!
27/11
Sorry guys, I do not have enough money to order pizza so had to let you guys eat food that we have yet to cook at BBQ. Thanks Jacelyn and shermin in helping to prepare the food for the class. Sorry to the boys also, we girls ate all that you all had none to eat. SORRY! We watched wild child, the show is kind of nice. The main actress and actor are both pretty and handsome!
Yu Run and Jeremy Yeo's arcade basketball skills is really not bad! Alan's one man show is also pro! Crystal and Ngai Fong came! hahas. Enjoyed seeing you all. AT night, I slept at my cousin's place. SUPER NICE.
28/11
Checked out and went out with Mabel Lim Deborah and Shermin to vivo! =D Long time since I saw this two beautiful sister. Sorry for my sleepiness! =( Go out soon again ok! I cannot watch movie with you guys lah. Such a pity. Don't miss me too much! =D DEB AND MABEL! YOU BOTH LOOK SO PRETTY TODAY! I felt like a clown standing beside you guys. LOls.

Overall, Chalet was fun! I had a different perspective of people. Girls are super sweet and guys very caring. But I still have a regret, cannot see until sun rise =( Rafidah&Esther, must take care of yourself ok!
Mabel, Xin Rong, Dan Shan, Jessie, Jolyn, Florence,Crystal,Jacelyn, Li Ying,Ngai Fong, Esther, Rafidah, Nadiah, Jeremy Yeo, burhan, Yurun, jeremy tan, weiting,Bin xi,Beryvn, alan, Run zhou, Bing chen, Ezzat, Muhammad, Nuruddin, Aliff, Sunthar, Mrs Phua, Shermin=D
Had fun with you guys!

3e4 chalet details

2008-11-21T08:31:00.000-08:00

Class Chalet,

Date:26-28nov'08

Venue: Costa Sands (Pasir Ris)

Sorry people for the delay. I have been kind of busy and lazy hahas. SORRY!

Ok, it has been confirm that it will be ONE room.

Yup and our kind hearted Aliff helped us book at a VERY CHEAP price.

Which means I can provide another dinner at the last night and you guys can bring

lesser money for eating and spend more on playing.

THANKS ALIFF!

Ok, so I shall emphasis that the money you are paying is for:

1.Room for the stay.

2.Drinks for the whole chalet stay

3.BBQ food for the first night.

4.Pizza for the 2nd night.

-Total estimated:$17

But if you are only coming for one day,

-$8,50

Likewise the cost is for

1.dinner for any night you are coming.

2.Drinks for the stay

3.Room for ZzZzZ

-Any craving for caffeine?

If you do have,

please either

bring your own or,

we buy big bags and share

(do tag! Or I will assume

you will bring your own)

-Ok, now regarding the

meeting venue

We shall meet at

Bukit Batok Int 1pm

Those that have yet to pay,

Please do pay up! Pay Pay Pay!

If not 100% interest. hahas.

But really do pay. We need sufficient funds

I will remind you guys too.

But please too make an effort to remember.

-There might be extra money

from this chalet.

But only massive amount will be return

if not rest as class fund

any objections?

Psst:I will be late
for the first night
cause I suddenly have
tuition, but I will gather
you guys first. Cheers

2008-11-17T20:27:00.001-08:00

I find it so unfair for myself wanting others to suit my needs. I have awaken. I want to change. I may get aggitated for this few days or moody hahas.But I will be strong. People who have help me pray. Thanks. Please dun stop praying ok. thanks thanks =D. How I wish time can go back to the past when all these have yet to happen. I find it so hard to smile. But darlings, nevertheless will I disappoint you. I will trust in the Lord for He have a purpose for me and my family. Instead of blaming God for what is happening, I want to run to Him for comfort and healing. =)

W/O mozilla fox I will have typo errors so pardon me. =)

2008-11-10T07:59:00.000-08:00

Ok. I have the sore eyes. Yups, I have to wear sunglasses even at home. I dun want to pass it to my family. But anyways I hope tomorrow can go school and church for Pastor Daniel's talk. People, have a awesome day and takecare of yourselves alright. People seem to be more prone to sickness these few days.

2008-11-10T00:00:00.000-08:00

I didnt went to school today. My eyes are like excruciating pain and puffed up suddenly. Oh man. I look like a freak. I keep having headaches and being giddy frequently. Super irritating. Ok, enough of my rantings. Lets talk about happy stuffs!
7.11.08
Happy Birthday Teo Yu Run =)
Had school till 12.30. Had lunch with my e4 darlings at buddies. Had fish and chips. It was super nice. BUt kinda expensive cause i spend too much already, ah, I ought to control my spendings. We went to the Padang for the event. it was fun! get to see my Pei Hwa school mates. Sweet loving friends. Left that place around 6. It was crazy. I saw Nat ho! handsome! Handsome! Bear with my boy-craziness. Had dinner at"just noodles'" MMMM, not bad. We did many crazy stuffs that would probably freak you guys out. Reach home around 9.50 hohos. tiring and fun!
8.11.08
Area games day! Met up with deb, wan Ping, Ken, Jeff, Sherm. Took 61 VOOM~! Saw our loving zealot area. Joined the "Primates" with Irvin the leader and AH meng our small teams. I am proud to say that my team and the tribe is awesome! My team consist of Marcus, Daniel, Deb , Ghim Hwee, Shermin , WanPing. Wee. Three cheers for "ah meng" and the "primates". Had fun with the starch! I had battle marks of the "Tug Of War" Pain Pain! After games had toilet hunting with the "ah meng girls" hahas. Had lunch with cell group. They were sweet!
Psst: jinwei is pretty, HER friend is Beautiful!
9.11.08
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MABEL ANG
Happy Birthday Charles
Happy birthday Uncle.
Three having celebration at the same day. I had to sacrifice one. sorry Mabel. I really wanted to go. But yup, I reached my ah ma house at1. Mini bus arrived at2 to fetch us to Changi for buffet! But I did not eat at all. =( hahas. The chalet was the exact same place with zealot one. Such coincidence.
Left at 6 and headed to my uncle place for dinner. Saw my beloved cousin. Debbie and Claudia. Did not speak much to them =(. Hopefully can meet out? hahas.

Overall I had fun.
P.S if any typing error, please pardon me for my eyes are really pain. But i really like blogging! =)

2008-11-05T02:52:00.000-08:00

Ok, this holiday i feel that I have got so much to do! I want to start my ISPL soon. Ok, I constantly procrastinate. I hope I have a motivation to move on. hahas.
I want to try doing japanese bento!! I want. I want I want. I shall find sponsors!*hints* hahas. I shall go Daiso to find my equipments and to Orchard's istean to find ingredients! If I have the liberty of time. since my time table is so packed this coming holidays. I also want to try baking stuffs but i dun have an oven =(
Juniors, dun laugh. It will be your turn soon.
Jacelyn! next wed go your house!!! WEES~!

I am excited of what is about to come.
Though there are so many obstacles that I have to go through. Including viewing of people faces.
I become more and more intolerant of such behvaviors and very senstitve of such issues. I get pissed off very easily. So pardon me if I somehow dao you and being very insensitive to you. I am trying very hard to pull through. Homework upon homework. Tiring and stressful.
But Peishan is very strong ok! =)
Today they had o level for higher mother tongue. I guess they will do well. hehs~! they must lah! =) People having re exam for a maths must JIA YOU yu all can do it one!

Ok, I am tired to blog already.

2008-11-02T02:15:00.000-08:00

Ok, I am so dead now. I have 3 freaking chinese compo not done.
Also my SS not done. Rah. Yes, i am still using my computer. Super irritating to have the after examination mood. Hahas. I guess tomorrow I shall arrive top school as a panda bear. The real wu shu warrior. LOLS. Whatever, i had an awesome weekend helping my mum at her workplace. Its super fun! off for dinner. Loves.....

chalet (3e4'08)

2008-10-17T08:13:00.000-07:00

Ok,

I shall post up the chalet stuffs on my blog. 3e4, lets tear down

the chalet hahas.

Ok, I am lame.

Venue:Costa sand Pasir Ris

Days: 3day 2 night. 26 27 28 nov

Rooms:1 (due to the guys's hyper activeness and also to reduce

cost. fret not, its a two level chalet,

hopefully we can all squeeze! Lets all bond 3e4!)

Cost:$17( includes 2nd/1st night BBQ) (VOTE!)

Meet up place: 26 nov( wed) meet 12.00pm at Jurong East

interchange/ West Mall(VOTE!)

Estimated about 35 people turning up so cost is based on the

number.

Do bring extra money for your lunch, dinner, bicycle rental,

arcade and stuff......

and also if want, bring a sleeping bag.

Do pay by this coming week(latest by fri 24oct) as Shermin

would have to collect the money first before booking the chalet.

Lets enjoy ok! =) We must bond bond bond and have fun

together!

3e4'08 I LOVE YOU GUYS!

*money might be more then enough. We shall discuss the food

thing in class and extra money shall be given back. PLEASE DO

VOTE! sms me or tag at board, i will accumulate the votes!

dead blog

2008-10-14T09:26:00.000-07:00

I have been currently too tired and lazy to update my blog.
Sleep had just been never enough for me these few days. I have been restless during lesson period which puts me off as I really do want to pay attention, so I will be catching my beauty sleep tomorrow. Its promotion day in our school tomorrow*prays hard to be promoted* I gave in my best effort this examination but I am so not satisfied with the results. Hopefully I would get motivated to study hard soon. But, its just kinda hard, I have the holiday mood.
Sunday:
I had a awesome time with Mabel, Deborah, Shermin and Angel. They had fun while I had to overcome my phobia =( but I really think that those rides were fun! But I needed alot of time and courage to get on those rides. Mabel, you really gave me that trust that I am willing to play, My cousins used to give up on me persuading me to get on those rides. I never regretted playing! =) THANKS MABEL, and also all 4 of them whom had been so patient with such a timid girl and also for your encouragement to sit on those rides. Thank you so much! =) This makes me think of sarimbun camp(whatever it is called)
I heard that my ah gong is much better now, thank You God, You really answered my prayer! =) I heard that he cried today. Oh my, I really hope I can do something for him. GET WELL SOON MY AH GONG! =)

I am trusting in Him

2008-10-10T08:12:00.000-07:00

I am trusting in the Lord. I am wanting to live this life for Him.
Heal him as you said you would. Jesus, needing your healing to take place.

Terrible

2008-10-09T06:40:00.000-07:00

What if I never knew.
Why did I cry?
Why did I let my friend get worried?
Why must facts always be so cruel?
I used to ponder why must we even come on earth.
I dun want to see people around me suffer.
Why must unhappiness fall upon my family?
I dun want I dun want all these.
I really hope that you will get well soon.
I will be praying for you.
In life, nothing is fair!

2008-10-06T09:13:00.000-07:00

HEY! my examinations are over already. yup. Went to Bugis, Far East, Lot1, Very tiring yup but fun. =) My legs are sore!!! BOOHOO. Very pain lo, I HAD MY FIRST TRY OF PEPPER LUNCH. Yes yes i am a noob =.='''. It was very nice lah! mabel ate loads of flower today too. Muahaha. I am kind of deprive with what I want to write today. SO ya, I enjoyed today too! =)
Thank God for the works He done and led me through such a long period of examination.
I have SERIOUS panda eyes =( very sad lo. NVM i shall sleep more these few days to see can recover.
oh yes,those still having exam, JIA YOU OKIES! glorify God at the end of the run! =)
LOVES~

2008-10-03T08:09:00.000-07:00

Very tempted to post again as usual. =)
I had a great time today eating steam boat at deb's house. =)
Mabel, ANGEL, Deb, Sherm (I must emphasis Angel for it is really rare!)
We went to the market like aunties to get the ingredients. But its alot fun lo. =) I reminisce the times I went out with my grandmother. Now I am just lazy to stay at her house anymore. =X unfilial ah. I will try lah! =) Today was a memorable day. But retards just always is'nt full in numbers. THATS SAD! Huiwen Janis and Jing Yi must go out together ah I Don"t care! hahｓ
OH YA! my darling turn away from me last night! He went black out and never able to be called to wake up again. AWS my precious phone phone and birthday messages, =( Pouts. Awfully sad. Now using my 6280. Not bad too though. Just can't answer phone calls. so darlings, sorry if i do KUP your phone, my phone simply cant listen to them. I will respond to your call ASAP! =)

2008-09-30T08:12:00.000-07:00

The siao papers are like almost over! =) yupps
It has been a tough fight. But I standing strong. For I have this motto that keeps me on going: When I do my best, God will do the rest. yupps that kept my fire in wanting to glorify God. =) Of course, darlings thank you for the encouragement. I am much stronger now mentally. I hope lah. hahas. EUGENE! this period of time really thank you hahas you helped me pull through the night by smsing me. or should i say entertaining me. HAHAS. yupps God placed many encouraging people in my life. I want to live well. I just bought my water babies I am currently crazy about it but hahas, the passion will soon die. I WANT ALL COLLECTION COLORS CURRENTLY. Yes I have a new pet I only need to feed water. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHS anw, those that still come to dead blog xie xie ni men =) loves

2008-09-06T07:42:00.000-07:00

Ok my this computer dun have Chinese eyucks, boring,

I decided to keep this blog kinda alive. hahas
yupp. I today had a wonderful time understanding people and stuffs like that.
Its hard to make people trust and confide in you.
But I believe that if I dun give up soon. soon. It will come true. I know I have many weakness and soft spots. I hope that I can go tomorrow's bible study. Somehow I feel that it would be awesome and into my heart.
Hehs, tomorrow I also have a wedding dinner to attend. Boring, I doubt I even have any nice clothes to wear there. But hack lah, i also dunno these people. hahas just go there makan bah. hehs.
God i want to know you more. I hope to see that revival. God I really miss them alot.
It hurts me to see people being stagnant it hurts me when they shuns of God in their life and give lame shit excuses for not doing quiet time. When will you wake up? when will you commit yourself to God?I dun say that i have a very intimate r/s with God.When will you start adoring His greatness? He is AWESOME He is WONDERFUL. I really love this lover! =) He is the one and only truth living God.
Jealous bahh? i have HIM AHH! =) He will always be by my side and never leave me alone. =)

2008-09-05T03:13:00.000-07:00

我知道我给自己太多的压力.
我不断的跟自己说everything is fine.
但是我真的可以吗?
我有一群很好的朋友,
也有很好的家人
最重要的是我有一个不离不弃的Lord Jesus.
我会很开心的.
我会加油的.
我亲爱的朋友家人也要啊
I thank God for every single one of you in my life
I feel so bless when i began to count them.
Let me show you my darlings!

Mabel, Angel, Huiwen, Deborah, Crystal. <3! onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_3Kj60bniOU8/SMENmPIZReI/AAAAAAAAAE4/fNrqEnK1vHc/s1600-h/1_556099878l.jpg">Jacqueline Ng, I am still missing you and the times on phone. Please dearest. I hope to see you back =).

Janis, Huiwen, Bing chen=)
Those chats we had, Ah ong, i miss you!
My Chio bu cousin Claudia! =) never fails to encourage me.
Yi Jie! the cutest! hahas. make me laugh like siao.
THIS IS MY SMELLEST PIG! =) Shermin.
UR SOLO SHOT DEAR =) hehs
Jeffery! hahas look like liang zhi lo!
oh ya
Siewling, Thank you! i love you too! =) yupp GOD LOVES YOU TOO =)
Claudia> I LOVE YOU TOO. i will be strong =)

2008-09-01T05:08:00.000-07:00

I decided on many stuffs. But people just keep adding on things to make my life so miserable. Its like the plan keep get rearrange. Super sian. I decided to study but tiredness keeps gets the hold of me. Very stressful. But i can still handle it. so what if the world hates me, i have God with me. I am loved by the greatest lover. you are a hypocrite. but i forgive you. =) hahas

2008-08-07T01:20:00.000-07:00

Today just is not my freaking day. So many lies so many thoughts in mind. I really want to collapse already. Test are just so demoralizing. I feel very very bad. I feel very stress. I really sometimes feel there is a hole to hide. You know today I felt like a freaking dumbass. Haix. Maybe I am just too stupid to be true. My emotions are really like a wave which goes up and down up and down. I hate it. But you know, I sought to seek God. But somehow the Chapter I am reading now demoralize me further. Saul, i guy who do things in his way instead of God's. Lord, am I?

I can smile i can fake i can be a happy person but my heart is stressed up and no one knows. nobody cares.

2008-08-04T04:26:00.000-07:00

=) This guitar is the one I told you guys that I am blessed with. Yes this guitar is super chio! =)
But no brand. hahas. Its nice lah! yupp. Thank You Lord!
Heys, CA2 is coming! Jia you people!
Love you guys
I also got a guitar pick! Erm Duh! hahas
But first one just have its memories =)
There are many more to come! hehs. This one is already broken! Hahas pro right? I played consecutively 2hours and it broke =( sad lahh! who one buy for me? hehs
Yup I pray that the Lord will guide me in playing guitar to glorify Him!

=)

2008-07-25T04:03:00.000-07:00

This is my second year in church already, see how fast time pass. Ahs sian lah old already hahas kiddings. Jean Happy belated birthday too! Nobody remembers my spiritual birthday =( Lols. Very sian lah! OH YAH! angel's eyes is ok already! super awesome can! =) thank you Lord.
Ca2 coming le, da jia yao jia you ohh! love you all!

2008-07-18T07:04:00.000-07:00

Heyss! DARLINGS! =)
I am back to update YES YES, I took very long to update.
Angel was hurt during P.E =( but i believe she will be fine! Christians that know her, keep her in prayers alrights. Hurts my heart to know that she is suffering. How i wish that the one that god hurt. I mean, at least i dun wear contacts. Aws, i think i really feel her importance after this incident. =) I love her lahh!<3
I today a lik high ahh hehs and my victim was : Ken Yip AHAS!
sorry lahh, but very fun! hahas.
Oh yah. Shermin, happy belated birthday! =)
I love my darlings! retards much much loved!
aws! jia you people! ILY hehs =)

It was never till then i knew your importance. Hehs Much loves!

2008-07-11T04:26:00.000-07:00

HEY HEY HEY hahas.
Today was awesome, having the nubian gents in my school. Its amazing, tomorrow we would be blessed by them again. Any people interested? sms okies! dun have my no., add me in msn! hehs
its a awesome bunch of people passionate for dancing and dancing to glorify God. I really enjoyed it. hehs.
TodayI learned alot, to look at things with a different persective. Even there might be stuffs unfavour to us. But think of it the better way, why let ourselves thinking that we would be always unlucky the whole day just because of one event? I did wanted too cause i got detention for today, first time of my sec life. Then alot events that are unpleasant to me. But as i thought back, dention was only half an hour. WOO which to me was like WOW, i no longer have to be bored to death. hahas! and maths, i had ebough time to do it before miss ng came. AWS, see Lord always provides another way out for us. =) it might not be wad we want, but just let God lead =) but if u arent a Christian I too feel that this implys to everyone of us. So, Cheers.

I hope my heart will just be gone. Why having a tugging always? why having heart breaks always? I just hope i can remove it. I am not trying to be emo. But i really dunno why i feel so bad always. Lord please fill this vacumm up. I dunno why but this feeling i hate it i no longer want to dwell in it.

long and random

2008-07-05T11:04:00.000-07:00

ok now, i am kindnof tired , cause its already 2. i figured out comparing do kill r/s. all thanks to dear, its like she too, understands what i feel i am not a weird freak hahas. gtg sleep eyes cant open liao. lols!

=]

2008-07-02T08:22:00.000-07:00

hello darlings, I had an extraordinary day today. I spa talks tht totally bored me off. but they were really great help. I hope I can score in spa [which i doubt so] I really want back those holiday times where times seemed to pass so slowly in pri school but now, time is just passing horribliy fast which I simply hate.Blessed, loved!

2008-07-01T05:23:00.000-07:00

I had a awesome day, Lord recovered my wallet for me, i am lucky! hahas. God thank You all glory and honor goes to You Lord. I just hope my test that are coming up will be easy. I am extremely tired now.

I asked myself but i got hurt. I pondered but i found only hurts. I fake a smile. I numb myself with songs and put on a mask. I dun want you guys to get worried but I really want to blog about it. I love my friends now alot. But its hard to continue on. Lord save me help me. I need You. I dun want satan to win, I want You to win for You are the true and living God that i awesomely just want to dance in Your presence.

2008-06-27T01:03:00.000-07:00

Boos hahas I told you I am a ever changing girl hahas.
yuppps back to update. this week of school has been great hehs I had recording and stuffs super fun =) Celine clement Lynette samantha pabian I dunno how to spell lahh MUAHAHAS but they have been awesome lahh =) of course my group too Mabel deb janis sherm maggie janet <3

My heart hurts i dunno why i want to cry but i can't wads happening. hearing of sad songs to let out those tears wad happened? I dunnno! Lord give me an answer

2008-06-21T20:08:00.000-07:00

Hellos i am here to update la =)
Its like super long since i update hahas.
I am missing holidays already. Tomorrow is like already school start so fast time flies I want like more more of holidays and less of studies. My homework is totally not done. I am verdict a total failure hahas. This holiday has been great and now i am fully charged up for God and i want to chiong for Him. He is worth it. I am not going to online often but any tags emails, offline messages I do view and reply them. =) But i am a crazy girl so I may suddenly keep online also. ahahs Girls are always changing ma so cannot blame. But anything important are preferably inform me by SMS.
Peps ILY lahh!
Jacqueline Ng Wan Ping Deon JIA YOU!!!!!
IMY ALL LAHH!!!

2008-06-05T03:18:00.000-07:00

2008-05-19T06:33:00.000-07:00

Hey guys i am back from my camp =)
i had a ngee ann poly Camp for the three days It was awesome
my tribe:CENTURIONS
Just simply rocks we were the first tribe!
Got to know people from other schools too.
OF course my AL,SL were awesome
FAHILA! KRYSHELLE! JONATHAN! CLEMENT! TOMAISINA!
CUTE & Loving bunch of people.
i had a awesome time. LOFT@94!
I would post the camp photos ASAP!

2008-05-15T05:24:00.000-07:00

Ok fine.
my results were back and it sucked big time.
i asked God why was it that i put in sooo much effort but yet i was disappointed once and once again. results were very bad.
But the Lord just dun disappoint me. I was told today a earth quake had happen and it was disappointment i want to break free from disappointment. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.
girl, i know you are super loved by teachers but it does not matter to me any longer. Though inferiority just does not get out of me yet. I believe i walk with God all things are possible.

2008-05-10T08:50:00.000-07:00

Hey my darling friends i would relink/link you guys asap.
Hehs sorry lahh, lazy mahh hehes
i bought my guitar at laat but actually, it was blessed by God from my cousin.
hehs AWESOME
i hope i can glorify Him with this guitar=)
i want to learn it well anws, thanks for your concern my leg will soon be great and good and can JUMP MORE hehes.
PEISHAN SAYS; THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

anws i hope that i can let go of you hand its hard but i have to. STUPID DIAO!!! i hate you.

2008-04-09T05:00:00.000-07:00

shhh, i want to run i want to hide.
i find myself super useless.
WHY WHY WHY. the efforts i put in like really dun contribute to anything
Lord, save me guide me, teach me. haix
can anyone cheer me up? x(
I died on 8.00pm hahas

2008-03-28T05:26:00.000-07:00

I am happy. Not with life but because i have Him. i want to be contented with things He blessed me with. x) that includes friends. UHUH!! Friends are imp to me! x)
Deb and sherm and joel Tomo jia you ahh!!! x)
Peishan always support band de lahh hahas. I suddenly mss Japan sooo much. maybe i want to hide frm studies hahas. and no kidding their food are super nice lahh ahhas.
i dunno if i hurt anybody in things that i do. But if i really do, i rather you tell me then i know it myself. i am a super sensitive girl i must say.
i get angry and jealous super easily. now, i want to change and i am in the path of doing so. and i really have test that God sets that makes me want to RAHHS go crazy. But i know i can preservere. i like hen jiu never have fun already. haix.
i want to go somewhere where people can't find me and i off my handphone for a day and spend timewith Him but, it seems super hard ehhs? this is a hetic life. God u lead me.
My legs are super aching sue to walking 1 and half an hour for buying my brother stuffs, rahhs.
deb, one day go eat sakae lehhh two people eat. HAHas that time was great lahh hahs. Sherm, faster sick lehh go polyclinc tgt hahas! angel> must drin water arr eat so manypeanut. Huiwen. shop tgt one day! mabel>holidays go out arrh x)crystal and Fong> tomo flag day jia you! x)

2008-03-24T01:03:00.000-07:00

When sorries are said too many time, wads the use? so i guess sorries are precious. If i am not in fault, i won say this word ever again anymore. With responsible and with love x) i want to do wad i am suppose to do. nv do i want to hurt my friend's heart ever again. i think i am fortunate to have so much besties around me. exp GOD. deb, mabel, shermin, angel, huiwen, janis, Jy , Crystal wad else an i ever ask for? just to treasure them well forever.

2008-03-21T07:47:00.000-07:00

As i walked down those streets that i walk pass, i think of many things that i just don't want creations of God to slip pass my eyes.I know i have a supporter behind me. friends may leave me. But on quiet and lonely moments, i know i have a support behind me. People may betray nor will i even guess their hearts. I dun want to waste my time anymore. hohos. I went to enrollment service today with shermin. then i saw many people not know Him yet. It breaks my heart.i want my friends and family to know Him one day. that day maybe long but i know if i trust in Him all things are possible. x)
i too want to thank God for such beloved friends around me. x) Thank you Lord they made my days sweet. i hope to be a girl that can do the right thing and be a living testimony. Lord, i love you forever. let our first love always last! x) 我得最爱的人我永远爱你只有你可以占有我的心，耶书阿那就是你！

2008-03-07T20:02:00.001-08:00

EHEHEHEHEHEHEH
i am back hahas
sorry lahh lazy i think for like 2 weeks nv online already lahh ahahs.
sorry i was sick for a week too lahh ahahs.
Holidays are here but somehow i find no joy already lahh
super packed lahh! haix i hate sec 3 life lahh. *cries*
deb, they still small lahh hahas despo kia wad.

A commitment i want to commit
that is to love Him more for He love me so much.
i know that i was wrong that i talk back to my mama lahh. but who can stand it?
haix.maybe sorries should not be said?? i dunno anymore. Lord renew me will You? i feel so useless You know? haiz i feel like crying lahh! ;( , anyways
i know You will not forsake me for You promosed me Yourself and i trust in You just like the bus incident x) *loves!!!

Bus incident
My 55cent gone missing when my bus was about to came. and the amazing part is that i put it in my hands and it was gone without a sound~ i lookied for it and all i found was 25cent that was in my wallet which i brought for in case. It got me super panicked lahh and i prayed and He say just tap your card. but i was huh!~ card no money lahh! how too? later uncle kick me out hahas. so i hesitated and when i was ready too, the bus left lahh hahas then He told me that when You lose a chance to glorify me or lose a chance to do wad i tell you too, you will have to wait for another one and i found a 20cent on the floor so i thought maybe my monsy drop and i think too much that God was talking to me. But right, i cannot find the rest and so He say again this time you have 45cent and still not 55cent. i want to you to trust in Me that i can lead you and you can take the bus. i was sure it was Him. This is my second chance. and so i did it. i put in 45cent and tell the uncle truefully that i don't have and He say ok nvm. i was like WAHHH like that ahh heng heng hahas. i was grateful to Him that He helped me and i learned three things
1. If you want to follow His plans, Listen to Him and don't doubt
2. If you miss one chance you have to wait for another and it is not that glorifying as the first one.
3. He answers prayers x)