♥' Sunday, October 28, 2007
My mei mei jingyi ask me to do agn hahas;
List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:
1. the NEW APPLICATION BIBLE !!!!
2. God's presence to fall on me!
3. retards&zealot2 to be with me forever
4. just some cute stuffs x)
5. you to church HOHOS
1. The person who tagged you is? Jing Yi <3
2. Your relationship with him/her is?My dearest mei mei & retards member
3. Your 5 impressions of her? Cute, Siao, sweet, LOUD!, *pure*
4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?she comforted me when i cried& make me so happy with her lameness x))
5. The most memorable words he/she has said to you? hmms too many to remember AHH classic one: COLOR PENCIL IS CUTE HOHOS kidding x))
6. If he/she become your lover, you will? WAAA she my mei lehx cannot cannot later she & me de child become les or gay how? LOLX
7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be? Be like a girl instead hahas.
8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will? NAH impossible!
9. If he/she will become your enemy ,the reason is? my attitude? hehs x))
10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is? just be with me larhx my dear mei. i will miss you so much x((
11. Your overall impression of him/her is? look so quiet but HOHOS is xiao la jiao larhx hahas. but to me she is so dear to me ever wonderful girl x0
12. How you think people around you think about you? siao & talkative bahx hahas.
13. The character you like most about yourself is?ehs i dunno lehx hohos
14. On the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?i hate my attitude yes totally HOHOS.
15. The most ideal person you want to be is?just to be a preson that follows God heart beat x)).
Pass this quiz to 10 people:
1.Deborah
2.Huiwen
3.Shermin
4.janis
5.jacqueline ng
6.jacqueline chang
7.natalie
8.wanping
9. jasmine
10.Sabrina
17 ) Who is no.6(Jacqueline chang) having a relationship with? MEEE HOHOS!
18 ) Is no.9(Jasmine) male or female? Female
19 ) If no.7(Natalie) and 10(Sabrina) are together ,will it be a good thing? I don't think so hahs lols later God angry worhx hahas
20 ) How about no.8(Wanping) and 5(Jacqueline Ng)? NO LARHX hahs.
21 ) What is no.2(Huiwen) studying about? hmms alot of things hahs advertisement! school work? band? hahhas
22 ) When was the last time you had a chat with no.3(shermin)?yesterday.
23 ) What kind of music band does no.8(Jasmine) like? ehs hahas i know she like hosanna then i not sure le HOHOS
24 ) Does no.1(Deborah)have any siblings? One elder sister.
25 ) Will you woo no.3(Shermin)? my sweet heart le DUN NEED LE HAHS x))
26 ) Is no.4(Janis) single? nope hahs she is my girlfriend lar hahas <3
27 ) What is the surname of no.5(jacqueline ng)?ng =.='''
28 ) What's the hobby of no.4(Janis)? decorating stuffs & they are beautiful!
29 ) Do no.5(Jacqueline)and no.9(jasmine)get along well? Of course hahas SAME SCHOOL & CHURCH HOHOS.
30 ) Where is no.2(Huiwen) studying at?Bukit Batok Secondary School.
31 ) Talk something casually about no.1(Deborah)? My mei/ mama codes hahas x)) sweet & hyper girl.
32 ) Have you try developing feelings for no.8(Wanping)?close enough le ahahs.
33 ) Where does no.9(Jasmine) live in? ehs actualli i still blur hahas.
34 ) What color does no.4(Janis) like? Ohs hahs i dunno =x shall ask hahas.
35 ) Are no.5(jacqueline ng )and 1(Deborah) best friends? YES hahs they are cuties hahs.
36 ) Does no.7(natalie) likes no.2(Huiwen)? ehs dunno each other hahas.
37 ) How do you get to know no.2(huiwen)? hmms since sec1 hehs my dearest alwasy there for me girl x))
38 ) Does no.1(Deborah) have any pets?fish ahahs LOLX
39 ) Is no.7(natalie) the sexiest person in the world? yea hahas exp when i tickle her she goes falling all around HOHOS
Two names you go by: Xiiaosuanner, suanner
Two things you are wearing right now: black skirt white pants
Two of your favourite things to do: sleep! seeking God.
Two favourite brand of clothes: hmms anything lar can wear can le HOHOS.
Two Things I did last night: singing&crying to the show hahs LOLX
Two things I ate today: my ah ma homecook bee hoon & yam cake x))
Two people I last talked to: my bro
Two Things you're gonna do tomorrow:work x((. seek GOD x))
Two favourite Holidays:Christmas & new year hohos
Two favourite Beverages: ice lemon tea & china apple hahs
Two Favourite TV shows: ai qing mo fa shi hahas old but nice x0.
Two Favourite Food: Sushi & food my ah ma cook x))
Two of your least favourite things to do:turn emo & rude x((
Two Things you want to do before you die: just to live a day by day hahas
Two People you want to tag to do this: YOU AND YOU.
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♥' Saturday, October 27, 2007
Today, the altar call came. If i wanted to even commit my life to God & doing everything He command me even when it is stupid infront of my friends. i was like yes i wanted too. x)) He showed me so many things i disobeyed & of things that hurts my heart. i wept in front of God & what He told me was that: Peishan i want You to listen & obey whatever things i tell u too. Will u do it even it embarrass u ? for i am a person that want face HOHOS. I chose a YES x)). He then said: thats good my dear, those past that i showed u, confess & i will forgive x)). I was like WAAA~! God is so merciful that how many things i hurt Him He also can forgive. hohos He is awesome.
God, hees u gave me results!!!! You gave me so many things that i cannot count. u also told me to start sharing, i will Lord. i want quiet moments so pray & speak to You x)). soon soon x)) maybe tomo morning or maybe mon x)) with prayer walks & so on hehes. yupps maybe my Blog is not worth to be read at all? but nevertheless this is my true self all the things i write x)) THIS IS MY JOURNAL. THIS IS WHERE I EXPRESS MY VIEWS & THOUGHTS.
RETARDS~!
MABEL: my jie jie <3 so sweet love & siao hahas. she is like my hmms close friend yes yes we share & talk. she has a way to make u talk HOHOS yes larhx i love her for her character. so sweet & loving.
ANGEL: my mama!!!! <3 u are like a da jie jie to me, giving me advises & what u speak are so mature larhx x)) that makes u like my jie jie hohos so mature x))
Huiwen: AHHH!!! hahas my papa<3 my bestie that has gone through super load of things together.yes yes she is a girl SUPER NO TEMPER hahas<3 i love her dearly for SHE IS JUST SO DEAR.
DEBORAH: our mama code hohos. siao zha bo that can suddenly emo also!!! hahas. but she is really cute larhx. *loves~
shermin> THIS GIRL!!! we had been through alot of good & bad times. emo kid that turn to brightness le hahs LOLX. yupps loves~!
JING YI: MY SIAO Girl my mei mei x))
janis: sweet girl that always gives me reminders x))
jiamin: quiet in disguise girl hahs,
ai ya these words cannot measure things that we have had gone through. GOD i thank u for them all. SWEET LOVING FRIENDS OF MINE.
God, i learn something from You. That is to seek You first before anything happens.
quiet moments= best time with God. x))
p.s I DON:T LIKE THIS SKIN x( no capital letters x((
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♥' Thursday, October 25, 2007
My jasmine, girl its hard to even break i noe. yes of course its a hard decision to make. yes i noe it girl. but trust in the Lord. do u desire Him? do u really want to seek Him like what u have had said? of course its hard. i did not say it would be a easy task. remember wad i told u? that after u accepted Christ there will be even more challenging task thats wad i told u is't ? it the matter of decision making. yes my girl its hard very hard. girl. seriously have u taken into consideration, that what if tomorrow u die, what do u know about God. do u think u can go to heaven? no no no i am not threating u. its just a fact. u think i don't have problems? i do give in to the world at times but hey hey sermon said not to give in to the world u noe it just ain't good. trust me girl. don't wait till u regret. sorry girl, i did not know u posted it on blog so now hehes i replying u x)). heed my advice girl, u know whats good for you. pray & seek God. thats the suggestion i can give u. i was really happy when u told me that u want to break u know? i was super happy. jia yous yupps if u have had even thought it actually, it touched my heart x0
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♥' Wednesday, October 24, 2007
the world ALWAYS never fail to disappoint me with events & people. but i want to trust everything up to God. i don't want my own burden. SHOOS. i want to take God's burden that He will give me. & He promised to walk hand in hand with me while carrying the burden & the burden is light. Lord, i hand up my trust to u.it may be hard but with u i have no fear x)). People, the world may fail u but seek the Lord & God will always be there & give u a way out. yes even friendships or wad so ever the problem maybe. Pray & seek Him my friend x))
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okies okies i shall post hahas.
photos on derek birthday. my beloved zealot2 people yupps a chaotic fun day.
okies stop here x))
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♥' Sunday, October 21, 2007
my life sucks why cant i just do things right. whats happening. why why why i don;t want this to happen. maybe i should just give up.
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♥' Saturday, October 20, 2007
My beautiful mood is soo soo sooos sooo soo spoilt. i hate it can.
what kind of attitude u want to show, it hurts my heart u know. tears behind the screen, who cares?? its okies God spoke:if u have me, what those the world stand? why bother but to seek Me thats the thing important. i don't want this close r/s with God to end at all. i miss the times but now i chosen to seek Him. though girl, u had an important place in my heart. but hurt me sooo many times. i will forgive u yes for God told me too. yupps u noe God speaking to me is so unqiue today. He showed me a father&child. then told me girl, u are the child and i am the father, i would let u alone de. yupps so wad if the world hates u? so what if they don't care about u, u still have me wad. yupps i would not let u alone. seek me & forgive her. for u are my child , i want u to be like me. so u now noe what to chose??? i was like so reluctened but then i said YES I WILL FORGIVE hehs. then my dear called x)). all God's timing are just so prefect. yes la thank you for being there when i needed u. i will chiong home after school & seek u hahas. i want quiet moments with u. i feel so tired with the world for its always just so dissapionting but God u nv fail me x)) thanks thanks x)).
Blogged @ 8:27 AM
♥' Thursday, October 18, 2007
JULIA~! hahs
i experience Him toos.~!
today my mama ask me to make passport =.=''' spoil my motive sia x((
but nvm on my way back i speak to God. many questions HOHOS
some are lame HOHOS but God is super bearing larhx HOHOS He did not care about how lame it was & replied them all. it was an awesome chat & my r/s with my papa WAS WAY BETTER super happy i was larhx x)). yupps yupps this week so many larhx x)) i love Him <3
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♥' Wednesday, October 17, 2007
MISS YU i miss u hahs x))
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I HAVE DECIDED.~!
tomo not to go to school. For i dunno, i am so far from God. i decided to spent tomo with Him intimately. yes yes Rahhs. i really hope to build on this relationship
i was pondering. if i had glorified God, but He just prompts me to glorify Him even further. but i lack courage again & again. yupp but NO MORE hehs. okies since i said that i shall post on it x)).
Derek asked me to do prayer walk & pray on education&market places. i didnt understand but i just prayed on wad i knew. the thing i prayed for HAPPEN but i didnt even noe =.=''' hehs. Derek asked for us to meet up on wed & thought that immediately came was;HUHS!!!!! can not on wed a not? Wa lao my cca just started nia lehx. then like tat can stay in cca mehx? why why why?? hahs yes this is wad i thought.
Then on mon. i was on my way to my mama work place to work. then i spent time with God when i was in bus. & ask Him regrading this matter. He said:JUST GO. Then i said to myself: YES! i will go kick out so wad, I DON't care le~!!!! Then on wed li yan said: Peishan, this week & next week no cca cause teacher got course. i was like WOW~!!!
i thanked God on the spot hehs. AMAZING is'nt? so proud to be His child.
also He speak to me so mani stuffs on mon.
& i finally realized something & have this belief even stronger. it that; when u are alone, its a great time to spend time with God & He speaks even clearer. & so i wanted tomo to be onli me& myself at home OFCOURSE GOD too hahs & maybe i would have a walk around my neighbourhood. to listen yes a prayer walk thats wad i desire x)). i was envious of Andy larhx yes ong chee peng hahs. he could walk to orchard for his walk with God at night & alone. i was like WOW~!!! i want to but mama don't let. hahs. BUT... i shall do it in the afternoon then hehs. since my holidays are here. yupps tomo is a must! cause i feel so afraid of losing Him. i cannot do it in school. i feel so distracted with the world x((. LORD I DESIRE FOR U~!!!
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♥' Sunday, October 14, 2007
MY BELOVED SATURDAY<3
this week about the sermon, linger in His presence.
after the service ended, i was about to leave but then BOOM! i started to cry. it like as if God is saying :peishan don't leave my presence, i am real, i have shown myself to you. i want you to stay in my presence i want you to worship me. i stayed & today i speak to Him & He revealed many things to me hehs nice one i love YOU GOD~!!!
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♥' Friday, October 12, 2007
Boos hahas~!
Today i had a fun time with my dearest;jacqueline, sweetheart;shermin, jie;mabel, mei/dear;deborah at sakae. x)) nicey larhx~!!! hahas & mabel got real siao hahs so unlike her lo =x really~!!!! but i like her like that~!!! ahahs. jacqueline has been siao always MY DISCIPLE ma so like me =.=''' hahas. Oh ya Jean is sick larhx pray for her k thos that noe her. saw Andrew today ahahs.
God i felt like giving up really, i want to. but Lord teach me the way to do it. i want to do it ur way not the world but urs Lord x)).exhausted with things all around me BUT I WILL AND WANT TO STAND FIRM~!!! i want to seek and worship You. i want to obey You yes Lord no more slacking on You for holidays are time to get so close to You yet easy to drift away. I dun want to drift away but stand firm x)). i want to get my relationship with You closer then before. i want to love You even more, i don't want to sprirt of complasent(somthing like tht). But i want to seek ur pressence i want to spent more time with You then every other things.
ISSUES TO GLORIFY GOD.<3
guys, i not afraid of the pass, its the now that matters.i post this thing up to encourage u people x)). i have been failing my maths, in case you dunno, and is 38 that kind, but this exam i got 61~!!! hahas heys heys i have been just hoping for a pass. in case u guys dunno. But when i was told by my cher i did well, i thought ai ya sure got pass YAYS hahs. but when i got back my results i got 61~~~!!!!!! yes i was sure elated. its like from sec1 till now first time hahas. seriously. i thought alot. then when sunei(??) hahs said about his testimony i was like WAAAA yes yes and also jeffery(??) both were like WOOS so into my life yes yes. to hold on to God until he bless us. and that God wants the best for us. GOD i thank You for the results u blessed me x)). and reminded me about the camp. YES THIS TIME I WILL GO~!!! YES YES no matter wad for God gave me Hos promise that i will be able to go yes Lord i thank You.i said all this marksi get cause i have God to my mama then she was like HUH? hahs yupps but i am NOT ASHAME AT ALL~!!!!
God i seriously thank you for jacqueline and deon. both faithful servants of urs and they are so nice larhx for me a discipler x)). I have been afraid that i will have a ah lian disciple & hard to cope but God bless me this both as a stepping stone, to train me up to share His words to these believers. yes & He gave me assurence that He will be there for Me many many times x)) thank you Lord. jacqueline & deon thank you for everything u did, be it ur QT & ur passion, i am super touched yes& i love you my darling dearest x))
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♥' Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Our chaotic fun in Zilain-ing x)) Jy Ps Hw
Zilians on sky train
OUR TRIP THERE~! SKY TRAIN~!
Huiwen sherm jingyi at siloso beach hehs i tou pai ahahs =x
JingYi, Huiwen ,Peishan
Zilians=x
Today 9/10/07
Met huiwen and shermin at westmall x)) ate and waited for everyone's arrival.
we when to board the Mrt and headed to habour-front. huiwen shermin and i went to buy TANNING LOTION ahahs x)) deborah and jingyi went to buy bread. mabel and angel bought stuff from wastons hahas. the two gays i dunno ahahs.
SKY TRAIN
after meeting up, we went to get the tickets to the sky train ahahs. then we proceeded to take the tram to palawan beach.
ARRIVAL TO THE BEACH
WHEE~! its clean larhx~! but salty =.='''. mabel and me when sun tanning ahahs. niceyyyyy~! after quite sometime, jingyi and me went to the opposite beach to catch fish. hahas. those fishes are transparent. seeing them makes u go child-like hahs. saw crab~! large man.
BATHING TIME~!
Angel, Shermin, Mabel, Deborah when to bath. sherm and i thought that jingyi and huiwen just wanted to walk around so we went to change ahahs.
LUNCHING~!
saw the two gays, huiwen & jy . we ate and drink x)). after eating, angel deb bing chen, ryan , mabel went to vivo. so sad to see them leave x'(.
Second tanning
then jy and hw told us that they want to tan somemore. sherm and i was like UH! hahas cause we bath le. but we still when and hack cared ahahs. this time of tanning was successful hahas. a bit more color then before yupps.
SKY RIDE
we took the sky ride hehs. nice larhx but i was afraid =x ahahs cause SOO HIGH~!!! but i want to go there agn x)) hehs.~! aft long time of chaotic fun,
THIRD ROUND
we went to the Siloso beach and tanned and had fun there hehes. abt 4.30 we went to change. then we took the tram for TWO big rounds hahas. we then took the sky ride back back to vivo x))
DINE-ING
jingyi ate her father's friend stall's tomyum noodles IT NICE LO The soup hahs. sherm and i ate dessert.
HOME-ING
after the food, i did not wanted to take the train so i went to take bus but at the wrong side =.='' so went to my mama office instead. SHOULD HAVE LISTEN TO JING MEI larhx hahs. regret le larhx ahahs.
NOW
i am like a red chicken hahas so pain lo x(( and i did speak to God too even in my crasyness for i did not wanted to fofget about Him. He told me alot of things and i was happy today x)) thanks Lord i love You
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♥' Saturday, October 6, 2007
Today its the day with God again x)). celebrated lianggzhi with a pleasant surprise x))
MACDONALDS happy meaL~! ahahs. met up with jac and sherm hehes~! yayness~! Jacqueline ng. really touched that u picked up ur couraged after we prayed tgt x)). i really happy that u trust in e Lord. so wad if the outcome is't wad u wanted but heys u tried and i believe God sees ur heart x)). two different ppl with diff attitude today hehs. MY PHONE BILLL x(( hahas LOLx its okies ahahs. shall call out less less already hahas.
i want to do wad God tell me. i don't want to procrastinate any further x)). i love u guys deeply. ZEALOT123 x))
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♥' Friday, October 5, 2007
its freedom thats all i can say x)) i miss u larhx my julia dear~! hahas long time nv go out le larhx x((. miss the times we slack around hehs. be strong girl! i love u a lifetime~! i miss the times LORD~! where the world seems to be onli me and u~! i want to spend a night a evening to walk with You. i want to understand You more i want to walk into ur agenda. yes yes its like forever i just want to seek u Lord i don't want to cry any more i don't want to hide. i just want to say ILOVEYOU~! hehs~! thanks for miss yu and jean that prayed for me =P sweet girls that i love dearly~! and and also. jacqueline for crapping with me ahahs. DEONTEHLIJUN~!!!!!! i miss u larhx ahahs. *loves~! today is a great day and it shall forever be x))
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♥' Thursday, October 4, 2007
okies hahas i really learn wad those it mean to not assume yes x))
it was a painful experience but i learn something, its okies x)) God all my subjects i lift is up to You. w/o You i am nothing x)) yes give me courage give my strength. time and time i felt like emo-ing. all the thoughts making me crazy, all the photographs. all those memories. You seem like gone in my life you seem a transparent thing which i totally don't want. it makes me hard to speak to u again because of the things that happen. i want time to turn back. i want to speak more i don't want this relationship like that. why standing firm is so hard? but i will x))
this week, God make me understand alot of things through encouraging other people. its a nice process. Yes and Germaine~! i am waiting for you arrhx and my dar deon x)) yes yes come back and run to God deon~~!! x))
people, standing firm is hard x)) but i will make it thru, i want a break through. yes x)) wait and see x)) *loves~!
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♥' Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Okies i got the wrong sing ahahs AFTER SO LONG ahahs
yupps yupps this is then the song i want and LIKE~!!!! its nice lo ahahs
x)) okies i am suku hahs so long then noe ahahs
but at least i changed ahahs x)) this so SOOOOO nice ahahs xP
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♥' Monday, October 1, 2007
Okies i find myself cute lar i mean small that time ahahas. x))
i am going to fail? hahas i don't care le OVER LE x))
maths i am going to muo ni de di ahahs.
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